Tue. Sep 26th, 2023

Ed Sheeran’s bright smile masks his grief over the death of his good friend and music entrepreneur Jamal Edwards. Ed Sheeran: The Sum of It All, a Disney+ documentary released on May 3rd, depicts the 32-year-old singer suffering his first contact with sadness. The four-part series is divided into four episodes: “Love,” “Loss,” “Focus,” and “Balance.” In the second installment, Sheeran is moved to tears by the death of Edwards. The YouTube personality and entertainment executive died in February 2022 from a cardiac arrhythmia caused by recreational drug use. He was 31. Sheeran attributes his success to his pal, as he debuted on Edwards’ SPTV YouTube channel in 2006. The singer/songwriter received the heartbreaking news the day after his wife, Cherry Seaborn, was diagnosed with cancer.

“I had friends in school whose parents passed away when they were 14,” Sheeran stated on the podcast. “And I think to myself, ‘That’s when you become an adult.'” “I recently became an adult because grief abruptly ends your youth.” The “Eyes Closed” singer acknowledged that grief is universal, but that it does not make the process any easier. “It’s all very sad.” It’s all horrible. “I know everyone goes through it, and I know it’s like a common thing you can’t avoid,” he said before reminiscing on the funeral service. “This is the first time you’ve been there, and someone hands you a shovel, and you’re suddenly putting dirt on your friend’s grave.” And it’s very strange. The funeral had around 30 people, but he knows about 10,000.”

Almost six months after his burial, the platinum-selling artist gathered with Edwards’ family for a barbecue to commemorate his first heavenly birthday. Throughout the episode, the vocalist maintained his cool, raising a glass in Edwards’ honor and mingling with his loved ones. He casually leaves the party in the middle of it to cry in the quiet of his automobile. “I feel so lost in there,” he complained, a frog in his throat. “This is his first birthday without him here. He hasn’t attended a cookout in a long time. He died six months ago, and the wounds are still extremely raw. It’s very true. We pass by his grave a lot. It just feels strange that he’s in a room with so many strangers.”

Sheeren musters the fortitude to return on the road in the last episode. When he returned to the spotlight, he remembered Edwards “the whole time.” He admitted that he was on the verge of tears on stage. “I was thinking, ‘I don’t want to cry in front of 78,000 people,’ and I found myself really close at times,” he said. “It’s insane. It’s like going back in time. Fly home, do something intense, and then get back to it; the show must go on.” The events surrounding Edwards, his wife, and a copyright infringement action concerning his No. The number one smash “Shape Of You” caught up with the artist. He earlier told Rolling Stone that he was in a downward spiral and considered suicide. “I felt like I didn’t want to live anymore, and I’ve had that my whole life,” Sheeran explained. “You’re drowning beneath the waves.” You’re simply sort of involved in this thing. And there’s no way out. Selfish…particularly as a father. “I’m very embarrassed about it.” Ed Sheeran: The Sum of It All is now available on Disney+. The crooner’s highly anticipated album, – (Subtract), is set to be released on May 5 by Atlantic Records.

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